竹板凳的漁瘟

Summer Glau for Batgirl.  Just sayin'

  All the talk about Summer Glau made me want to share the spoof Avatar I made for Galactic Watercooler's Batman Arc.

 

  Maybe a few pics with what I mean by Summer Glau looking like Jennifer Love Hewitt, Alicia Stone, and Jennifer Garner at special angles… if i can find them that is.

WHY! WHY would anyone cancel a show like TSCC?

 

  In the near future, a group of angry Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicle fans got together and designed a sophisticated AI which turned into Skynet, which then sent back Terminators to early 2009 with a mission to terminate those who canceled TSCC. 

 

  Rage aside, i love this show as much as I loved Battlestar Galactica.  For franchises started on the simple premise of killer robots chasing people around, both shows discovered deeper subjects to explorer.  While TSCC's exploration of "what it is to be human" is not as prominent as BSG, but when it does, the result is shockingly beautiful.

 

"They can not appreciate beauty.  They can not create art.  If they ever learn these things, they won't have to destroy us.  They will be us."

Sarah Connor

 

So this is it.  The end of the most masterful television program to have ever graced the screens.  The last 2 hours is simply the most beautiful imagery I have seen on any TV programs.  It was nothing short of pure genius and pure heart.  And to those who have missed the ride, I wish they will come around and see the most relevant show of the past decade.

The Adama Tears Show…

 

This episode is like a detailed description of how the show came to an end creatively and the eulogy for the series' end.  Let's draw the parallels.  The ship named Battlestar Galactica, aged and battle worn, brought back from being a museum, is on the verge of breaking apart.  It took  great efforts to piece things back, even introducing a lot of Cylon forces and technologies.  But all was in vein and at the end the two helmsmen of the ship, Bill Adama and Saul Tigh, decided to let the ship go out in style, sat solemnly and made a toast to the ship Battlestar Galactica.

 

The miniseries of Reimagining of Battlestar Galactica brought an old show, that had its glory but wasn't given the light of day, back into popularity.  It was new, it was fresh, it was promising and a beacon of hope.  However the creative process of not having a definite plan, battling long breaks, big budget, low ratings, the writer strike, and creating story lines on the fly just to get the greatest effect, had serious side-effects.  The show was breaking apart from the seams.  They brought in a lot of Cylon stories, turned several fans favorite characters in to Cylons.  But the two creators of the show realized if they go any further, the show would crash and burn, so they decided to let the show end at season 4, while they still can piece the puzzle together and go out in style.  And they wrote this episode to solemnly made a toast to the show Battlestar Galactica.

 

There's two more episodes until the series' end.

The last episode probably is hard for any Sharon-shippers out there.  I don't care if you are Athena-Helo shipper or the Boomer-Tyrol shipper, unless you are some skeevy Boomer-Cavil shipper, you'd be heart broken after this episode.  I can say with certainty now, there is't a happy soul left on Galactica, or that entire universe.

Nathan, ever the politician.

 

There are a lot of talks about Nathan's rapid shifting of sides in Heroes season 3.  Frankly there are a lot of talks about Sylar's rapid shifting of sides in season 3.  Some fans thinks this is due to poor writing, and they are out of character. 

 

I don't share that view and I think this could possibly be the deepest and most thoughtful season of Heroes yet.  I think the writer is trying to show us it's not your views that makes you a villain, because you can be a villain no matter what your view is.

看完這部電影之後我沉澱了很久。對於國內願意拍這類電影，任何棒球迷的心裡應該都是感動的。因此我對這部電影的期望有點高。看完之後有一點點若有所失的感覺，也不是很願意把感覺直接說出來。因為我覺得這部電影絕對值得鼓勵，而且也值得大家花錢去欣賞。我怕寫出來造成大家有電影不好看的誤解。光是曾志偉客串的兩幕無台詞片段就足夠大家付錢去看，那才叫演戲啊！

曾志偉沒台詞的兩幕，創造了一個飽滿的角色

對一個新竹人來說，這部戲是很特別的。尤其是一個新竹長大的棒球迷更是如此。電影在背景設定的時候一定花了很多心血。那些熟悉的地點與畫面，穿插著很熟悉的事件，好比爬到頂樓抽煙等，似乎就在說發生在自己週遭的故事。

我看到對這部電影最好的詮釋來自於 ottocat 轉錄 withjulian 的文 。

棒球一隊有九個人，九降風的主角們也有九個，好友間的關係如同職棒簽賭一樣的崩壞。阿彥對於腦震盪的不在乎，就像職棒對於異物介入的忽視；博助偷來NSR卻又不敢承擔，就像職棒球員拿了不該拿的錢；阿湯看著阿彥已經有了自己喜歡的小芸，卻又到處拈花惹草，但為了顧全大局，也為了小芸而默默的希望能改變些什麼，就像當年不願意配合放水的球員，不願說，不願揭發，只能默默的看；曜行是痛恨被職棒球員所欺騙的球迷，心中有著美好回憶卻極度傷心，當兵剃頭髮似乎也有與一般社會（職棒）完全斷絕關係的意味；小芸是對職棒死心塌地的球迷，深信總有一天職棒會再度重現風采；沈培馨是默默支持職棒，心裡總想著能為職棒做些什麼的球迷，但卻始終無力；阿翰則是對於職棒失望透頂的球迷，只能一張張的將球員卡親手毀棄，將記憶埋葬。一環扣著一環，最後友情就像職棒一樣崩壞。

若這些是影片想表達的隱喻，那這部電影絕不只滿嘴髒話的年輕人鬧事那麼簡單。可是要不是看到 ottocat 的影評，我想不到職棒新聞穿插在劇情中的用意。第一時間看不出這些關係，造成了底下想說的失落感。

失落感來自於電影有殘缺的感覺。個人覺得有三種可能：１、我在電影院沒發覺自己睡著了。２、我得了失憶症。３、導演或剪接造成這部電影有種不完整的感覺。我記得我很認真的看完了整支影片，如果是失憶那很歹勢，不過應該是很多細節似乎被剪掉的結果吧。偏偏這些細節應該是塑造角色的重要部份。

電影一開始對九個角色的塑造不夠，等到重大事件發生的時候，觀眾無法對角色的處境產生同情心或認同感。尤其是偷了機車的博助、代認偷機車的謝志昇、他的死黨李岳承在一開始完全沒有把角色特徵建立起來，結果副作用是沈培馨（紀培慧飾）的角色變成串場，她喜歡謝志昇的劇情也失去趣味。幾幕有她出現的片段都變看不出要表達什麼（好吧，也許我是對紀培慧戲份被砍才不爽吧？）。

之後到photowant.com看了九降風的劇照，發現很多在電影中沒出現的畫面：

沈培馨這兩幕我不記得有看到。如果是和九個男生一起出旅的片段，剪掉真的可惜了

另外就是湯啟進和鄭希彥之間的關係似乎也欠缺了什麼。底下這些不知道是不是被剪了。

如果原本小湯和小芸之間有這一段故事的話，被剪實在太可惜了。整部電影最後給人一種太過趕，不完整的印象。有些角色從有血有肉，被剪成只看到一個角度，失去了特色。最後不免從一部很棒的電影，變成一部還不錯的電影。當然這是我期待太高才會有這種感想吧？

演林敬超和李曜行的兩人演技已經相當出色。林敬超這個角色也沒被很完整的建立起來。但是林祺泰將他詮釋得有血有肉。阿超對阿彥的好感似乎超越了朋友或死黨間的友誼。欲言又止、壓抑萬分的阿超，讓人忍不住在腦海裡幫他把背景故事填滿。

王柏傑演李曜行算是本片最明顯的英雄類人物。不忍看到學弟謝志昇代學長的罪留下前科還被退學而自己前去認罪。最後嚥不下一口氣帶著球棒找人算帳，是個個性鮮明，讓人印象深刻的漢子。

如果影片最後雄哥能打一球出去，棒球迷哭死也甘願

影片最後小湯把球投給廖敏雄時，球一投出就 fade out 然後配個聲效。也讓人覺得有點失落，希望可以等廖敏雄打出牆外再 fade out。也許要拍到這幕會許要重拍很多次（因為張捷投球流暢度實在讓人 Orz），但是有這幕的話感覺會很不一樣吧。

最後挑些小細節娛樂自己：１、騎去城隍廟時在東大路橋上騎成反方向。２、新竹球場的顏色和塑膠椅墊都是去年才有的。３、南寮海邊的長亭也是近年才蓋的。４、新竹夜景中有 Sogo 和三越當然也都是近幾年才有的。這些不是重點，只是身為新竹人看到不免會去注意。畢竟新竹變的地方他們又不能把它拆了，所以小細節只是看得人挑好玩的而已。

九降風很勇敢，用力去挑戰了又大又深的一些題目。不過受限於一些因素（應該是資金吧），最後有些目標並沒有達成。但是它仍然是一部值得細細去品味的電影。去看的人也許會失落，但不會失望的。

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延伸連結
Ottocat - 一段屬於1997年畢業的高中生的回憶：九降風　看完九降風一定要看看這篇影評
導演日記（四）　與棒球王子廖敏雄見面　講到雄哥面對這部影片的態度。雄哥加油！
lalala 愛棒球 － 九降風,一定要去看!　球迷 lalala 對電影，與和雄哥討論的感想

哈，連兩篇與棒球無關的文耶 T_T

Well, well, well... after just 10 episodes, the first half of BSG season 4 comes to a screeching halt. No new episodes of season 4 until January of 2009, yup, that would be half an year from now, Craaaaaaaaaap~~~ and you can say that again.

Just 2 months ago BSG ended an year long hiatus, and now 10 epis later we have another 6 months to wait for new content. I swear to Gods if this isn't such a great show, fans would be storming the Vancouver studio gates by now.

Before I get any further, I must answer my own question (yes, i talk to myself, that's why I have a blog), which is "Why the frak do I have to write in English every time I talk about Battlestar Galactica?" Well, the answer I guess is simply I don't know anyone in Taiwan who watches BSG. I know that Cinemax Taiwan used to show season 2 at some obscure time slot, but not a lot of people watched.

Besides, then I'll have to spend the time and brain power to translate the show, and BSG is so beautifully written, I don't think it could be done.

Anyway, the 4.0 finale was awesome.

*spoiler alert*

So they finally reached earth, humans and cylons side by side, putting away their bitterness and suspicion. Wow, that was exciting, but no, BSG can't leave you with a happy ending.

Earth turned out to be just a nuke wasted inhabitable dump. The final pan over the ruined beach head is simply epic and beautifully done.

What the frak are you smiling at?

The Cylon Specialist formerly known as Chief Tyrol went through a lot of crap through the 4 seasons. Boomer, the love of his life, turned out to be a Cylon and his crew killed her. And yet Helo got married to another cylon model 8 with Boomers memories and then had a baby, the crew seems to be just fine with them. He went from man of the people to discovering that he himself is a cylon. Then he lost his wife, then his job. No wonder this man doesn't give a frak that Earth is a fraking winter desert worse than New Caprica.

The other scene where Tyrol just smiled at the absurdity of the situation was when he and Anders got arrested for being Cylons. Chief Tyrol has always been my favorite character of the show. He didn't have more than 3 lines in this episodes, but every shot of him speaks volume.

Is this really Earth? Who the frak knows. If Roslin is the dying leader, then this ain't Earth, or as Sean on GWC said it, their religion is crap. The whole premise of the show was these survivors need to find the lost planet earth. Now they've "found" it and it only made the show even more interesting. That takes creative genius to pull off. So cheers BSG fans, let's all toast a Cylon shooter to RDM and David Eick (no pun intended).

*/spoiler alert*

還在唸書的時候曾經欣賞了數場同學自己排練表演的菲律賓文化之夜。深深為這些既熟悉又陌生的歌舞感到震撼。隨著台灣近年來本土文化的開放、探索與自省，我才漸漸了解台灣和菲律賓間濃厚的語族、血緣與文化關係。



因為對歷史小有興趣，於是對麥哲倫旅程終點「宿霧島」充滿一探究竟的好奇心，體驗菲律賓的文化和美食。要求朋友分享宿霧旅遊的照片。卻因朋友照相技術不佳，只覺得沙灘很漂亮，卻看不出宿霧到底有多美。

直到試閱 Don Schumann 所寫「玩味宿霧島」一書的書頁照片，才發現過去聽聞的「美麗的沙灘與珊瑚」根本不足以形容宿霧的特色。

初見作者的姓名，還在想不知道翻譯的品質如何。試閱之後才發現自己完全想錯了。大部份的旅遊書內塞了一堆照片，另外僅有短短文字列出餐廳和旅館的住址。Don 身為攝影生涯20年的專業攝影師，照片精美當然不在話下。沒想到文字內容也如照片一樣豐富流暢。



作者不但分享親身體驗，並優美地側寫出鏡頭下成了漏網之魚的人文氣息，和環境周遭細節。使我有種身入其境，穿過了 Hilton Cebu Resort & Spa 旅館中庭的感覺。

總之如果想要到菲律賓最有名的觀光聖地，充滿歷史人文氣息的宿霧，看來非借助 Don Schumann 的「玩味宿霧島」不可了。

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相關連結：

旅店浪人 • 島遊家 玩味宿霧島 新書預告 Introducing Hotel Trotter • Island Traveler of Savoring Cebu
跟著書本到處玩：玩味宿霧島

well... i wanted to say "i wish i am those mopeds", but i wont! ... oops?

As Battlestar Galactica jumps into the fourth season, I am beginning to think about the Cylons in a different way. The series explores much deeper philosophical aspects of the real world. So I no longer just take the face value of what are being presented.

Cylons used to be just machines which led themselves to think that there's only one true god. The skin-jobs are machines imitating humans as a ploy to bring the end to the human race. Then we had Boomer, programed to think she is human, only to realize she's a Cylon. After trying to bring the Cylons to see there is a possible way to live in peace only to have everything crash and burn, she now has given up on her human identity.

On the other hand we had Athena. Knowing perfectly that she is a Cylon but chooses to be with the person she loves over the goal of her race. In doing so she learned to live with humans and gained their trust.

With the revelation of the final 5. I think by this point it's clear the Cylons can makes their own choices, despite being identical and able to share information and experiences with one another, making each one of them unique.

Therefore, when I think about them now, the Cylons, at least the skin-jobs, is a symbolic representation of human traits, human choices, self-identification and self exploration.

The uniqueness of each individual isn't how we view ourselves or the way we think. It is defined by our actions and our choices reflects our true personality. In the real world we are faced with the decision to fit in or be unique. We are frightened by the prospects of being an outcast, yet we desperately wish to unique.

This conflict is demonstrated by the Cylons and magnified through the abstraction of science fiction. In a sense, each Cylon models' struggle seems like a persons struggle to find the meaning for being and the reason for existence. Sometimes, the Cylons seems a lot more human than the human on the show. Especially now that Chief Tyrol is on their side.

While it is easy to live under a cause, putting self-demons aside while fighting for a single goal, what happens to the Cylons when the humans are truly exterminated? What then will be the purpose of Cylon's being? Some Cylons are figuring out this problem, and I think season 4 will have to address this issue before bring the series to its finale.

Well look, I know I've just seen an awesome ball game, taken lots of photos, and had a blast. And if I should write something, it should have been about the ball game, and it probably shouldn't be in English either.

Not that I aren't geeky enough already, but, OMG can you believe the season 4 premier of Battlestar Galactica???

First of all, I am reminded why it is the best scifi ever made. Just the look and feel of this cable network TV show is better than 90% of major summer blockbusters out there. When you add the depth of philosophical questions that the story itself proposes or the daring exploration of real world relevance, it is simply the best show on TV.

I thought DS9's eerie prophecy like insight and forwardness into future world events can never be surpassed. I mean DS9 was a show that ended in 1999, but became extremely relevant since September 11th, 2001. No other show on television ever brought the viewers to examine the basic nature of terrorism this deeply. Why is it that we can identify with the Bajoran terrorists? Why is it that most viewers finds the Maquis un-sympathetical, yet others who feels they are no less justified than the Bajorans? Not to mention the exploration of religion and terrorism was simply way ahead of the tragic events that brought these topics to the front view of the American public.

Yet I now feel Battlestar will be the next prophetical scifi. We may not see how it will be relevant just yet, but I think when the human race is staring extinction right in the face and can no longer run from the things we've done, we'd just realize the greatness of the show too late, like how it was with DS9. The only reason why these shows can achieve the "prophecy like realism" is that Ron Moore and the creators stay faithful to finding out what really would happen and how people really would react in the circumstances. Other shows often copped out going for the dramatic effect.

Back to the actual finale. It was so great, so engaging, so awesome and so much like a huge budget movie, that I felt an indescribable anger, rage and a bizarre sense of content when "To Be Continued..." was thrown in my face at the end of an hour. How can they possibly leave me hanging like that? The only thing that could compare with this annoyance would be CPBL's draw game rule.

Why did Kara go to Roslin? What does she hope to accomplish by pointing a gun at the president of the colonies? What really happened to Kara during the 2 months when she was "supposedly dead". Who is the last Cylon? What is the true nature of Head-Six and just what role is Gius Baltar suppose to fulfill? I feel that there are just as much, if not more questions after this episode than the last season finale.

But I am glad to see a few things:

1. Lee decides to quit the military and go into politics. This probably will have A LOT to do with how the story ends. Lee never truly wished to be a Viper pilot, it is his calling to take up politics. After seasons of being a bland character, Lee is now a fresh cup of tea. He will be as refreshing as Laura Roslin when she first took office. Lee's strong moral code and faith in others will be what saves the fleet from turning on each other.

2. I no longer have any doubt that the supposed final 4 are indeed the final 4 Cylons. Tigh projected himself shooting Adama for gods sakes. Are they preprogrammed? Can they overcome the programming and choose their own paths? How will they make their choices? What can they depend on as their guide, morally or principally, when making their choices? Are the final 4 Cylons even going to stand united or turn on each other?

The rest of the puzzle won't be revealed until next week. So, there... After one whole year of waiting between season 3 and season 4, what's another week, right......?

　　最初聽到 The Kite Runner 這本書是我兩位印度裔同事在吃飯的時候聊起它。對他們來說書中的人事物大概有如台灣人讀日本小說一般熟悉。我一直很想讀這本書，但是一直沒有行動。直到今年在台南一間十分時尚的義式素食餐廳裡翻了台灣譯版的「追風箏的孩子」。看完第一章後，我發覺我進入了一開全新的世界，故事裡阿富汗短暫的昇平年代有如奇幻世界一樣陌生，卻又說不出的熟悉。

　　原書是用英文寫的，所以我決定讀英文版的避免一些翻譯上的隔閡，畢竟我們和阿富汗文化的隔閡已經夠大了。

　　其實這本書的寫作手法對我來說有很多地方有些許的老套。比如說我讀完第一章後便覺得主角 Amir，主角的父親與他的小僕人 Hassan 間必有另外不尋常的關係。和讀到中段時便以預知 Amir 最後會領養 Hassan 的小孩。這並不是作者的錯，因為我相信故事的寫法和路線對歐美人士來說是頗為新穎的。但是也許亞洲人講故事的法式比較類似吧，有很多伏筆的手法我總覺得似曾相識。

　　僅管如此我仍被書中內容深深吸引著，因為在主要劇情中塞滿了有關主角經歷的細節，這些細節有的是阿富汗日常生活的形容，有的是兒童生活中的小插曲，異鄉人來到美國討生活的心聲，最後有些關於逃亡、戰爭、種族與宗教迫害的細節。這些反而是我無法想像的。

　　一本好的小說離不開人性，尤其是在艱難中受著考驗的人性。在惡劣的環境下不論是無所不在的人性弱點，或是曇花一現讓人感到無比驕傲的光明面，都是一個好故事所必備的材料。而命運中濃郁的諷刺感是一個故事最好的調味料。The Kite Runner 就是這樣一本書。

　　曾經 Star Trek 是美國電視界中，對現有的社會及文化問題最有創新與反省能力的節目。早從第一部 Star Trek: TOS (The Original Series) 開始，就在美國電視史上創下第一次不同種族（白人和黑人）接吻畫面。

 

　　而 Star Trek: DS9 影集更是毫不迴避的從宗教，種族歧視，大屠殺，奴役，恐怖活動，戰爭，政治口號等一一透過科幻冷靜檢視。

 

　　首播於 1993 年 1 月 3 號，結束於1999 年 6 月 2 號，這部算是 pre-911 (前911) 的節目，卻比任何後911的電視影集都還透徹。配合著影集中對超自然描述，有種近乎預言性的涵義。

 

　　對於習慣了 TOS 和 TNG (Star Trek: The Next Generation，台視的銀河飛龍) 未來世界中沒有戰爭，飢餓，甚至超脫金錢的 Star Trek 影迷來說， DS9 大概比中藥還難喝。甚至拒絕承認它是 Star Trek 的一部份。隨著時間和 911 事件，當年這部不受重視，飽受批評的影集反而吸引了越來越多的影迷。

 

　　當然，今天要講的是當年引爆許多爭議的一吻。美國電視史上第一次播出同性接吻的 Rejoined （重逢）。

紀培慧的搖滾世界

人家紀培慧說了，她不是張心如！！！

我倒覺得她這張頹廢風比戲裡的乖乖牌更有吸引力呢！

她是台英混血，所以我猜錯囉。

我倒滿希望她音樂也能練起來，讓台灣有個真正的搖滾女歌手。台灣女星唱歌軟趴趴的實在太多了。我說了，演危險的人以後都會有很好的發展，最近找紀培慧來到我的 blog 的已經一天超過四十人次了。真可怕，我的 blog 其實和紀培慧沒什麼關係。抱歉啦諸位，我只是在討論危險心靈，順便說一下紀培慧很漂亮，個性又鮮明，以後一定會紅。大家等著看吧 ^_^~

對了，培培有拍陶喆的一部片mv喔，至於是已經拍了還是新的 mv 呢？大家知道的告知一聲吧！

加油啦紀培慧！

（其實網路上有人貼出一些有紀培慧生活照的相簿，不過我想我還是用公視的照片就好了）

呵，花了三天就上下玉山，我的玉山遊記花了快兩個禮拜卻連登山口都沒寫到。

看完了昨天的危險心靈突然很想把感覺寫下來。其實從危險心靈第一集推出的時候我就在夜貓上推過這一部戲。倒不是我讀過侯文詠的這本書。只是這齣戲從演技，運鏡，節奏，到劇本都讓我感到台灣戲劇的提升。當然，這部戲蘊藏的涵義也是我再三咀嚼的。

有人說詩總是這樣，前不著村，後不著店，誰的眼淚？誰在哭？又書寫什麼？我最近才發現，都不重要了，重要的是它要變成你的眼淚，你在哭，你在書寫什麼？

我花了這麼久才發現，詩是這樣子的……

詩不在說一個故事，而是讓你自己去演一個故事。大家不是為李白站在那裡低頭思故鄉才感動，而是為自己低頭思故鄉而感動。就像聽到一首流行歌曲，不是為了歌手的心情去感動，而是那首歌成了自己的心情才感動。

成為自己的心情才會去朗頌它，才會記住它。
才產了一首真正的詩。

徐立功面前 李安三度落淚

記者葛大維／台北—洛杉磯報導

徐立功說：「李安得獎從來不哭，但他在我面前哭過三次。」

資深製片人徐立功公認是李安進影壇的「推手」，但他說：「李安的成功來自他的才華和努力，即使當年我不發掘他，也遲早會有人發掘。」

徐立功和李安合作的第一部電影是「推手」，當時徐立功剛當中影副總經理，李安第一次到中影找他，一身藍，牛仔褲和藍Ｔ恤，起初徐立功沒發現，李安在辦公室外面站了好半天，直到徐立功看到叫他，李安才敢進去。

李安把「推手」和「囍宴」的劇本給徐立功選，徐立功挑了得第一名的「推手」。李安考慮了一夜，隔天就和徐立功簽約，徐立功給了李安一千兩百萬元的製作費，後來李安曾半開玩笑說：「徐老闆，當時你怎麼不怕我帶錢跑了、不拍也不回來了？」徐立功只說了兩個字「不怕」。

「推手」之後，徐立功和李安趁勝追擊，再拍「囍宴」，獲得柏林影展最佳影片金熊獎，不過轉進奧斯卡最佳外語片，卻沒得獎。徐立功說，李安看起來一點都沒有失望，但也許他沒讓人看出來，也許他也很清楚自己時候還沒到。

直到「臥虎藏龍」，李安終於拿到最佳外語片，不過他渴望的最佳導演，仍然落空，徐立功直言不公平，當年得獎的「天人交戰」的史蒂芬索德柏成績遠不如李安。

徐立功和李安相識多年，分享榮耀與甘苦，李安三度落淚，讓徐立功一輩子也忘不了。徐立功說，第一次是「囍宴」得了金熊獎，回台後新聞局請客，席上有珍貴的 魚翅，李安看著看著就哭了，然後衝進洗手間，把同桌的人嚇壞了。散席後徐立功問李安怎麼了，李安說：「在紐約那麼多年，從來沒和家人吃過那麼好的東西，我 想到我太太…」。

第二次和第三次都發生在「飲食男女」。徐立功說，李安拍片時壓力很大，快殺青前，李安請工作人員，酒席上接到太太從紐約打來的電話，百感交集，只喝了一杯啤酒就醉了，又哭又吐。

等到電影殺青，李安離台前一晚，半夜拉著徐立功在大馬路散步，徐立功睏極了，李安頭低低說了一堆話，徐立功根本聽不清楚，他對李安說：「李安我拜託你，放我回家睡覺吧。」李安突然沉默了，不一會兒就哭了起來。

徐立功整個人被嚇醒了，問李安為甚麼哭，李安哽咽說：「我感覺好像自己造了一頭巨獸，而牠現在反過頭來要咬我。」兩人無言以對，默默又走了好長一段路。徐立功至今都沒問過李安，不過他很想找個機會問問：「你心中的那頭巨獸，還在不在？還會不會咬你？」

【2006/03/07 聯合報】

感人

So what we got now is Brokeback Mountain!
Everything's built on that!
That's all we got, boy, fuckin' all.

Jack背對著斷背山，激動的講出他的委屈。

在我的腦海裡浮現了，賴聲川的暗戀桃花源中那個老導演
頂著一頭灰白的頭髮，眼神卻回到了年輕時的上海，神遊似說著：

小手這麼一握，是最甜蜜，也是最心酸的一握。
江濱柳，我告訴你，這場戲你不好好演， 到了下場戲，等你老了，躺在病床上，你就沒有回憶了
你懂不懂？

啊，靠著回憶活著！

這場戲不好好演，等你老了，你就沒有回憶了！

李安是不是也曾這樣在斷背山的營火邊和年輕裝扮的 Ennis 與 Jack 講呢？

緊緊的抓著不能擁有的過去，看著未來一點一滴的逝去。

擁有回憶真的有這麼重要嗎？在人生最快樂的時候，記憶自然會萬分清楚。
等到痛苦的時候，記得再清楚又有什麼用？每個細節不過是種種折磨自己的方法。

不在乎天長地久，只要曾經擁有。這句話未免也太高調了。

能夠忘卻的人，再去找尋快樂的人才能沒有悔恨的過一生。因為，該悔恨的他們都不記得了。

可惜……

忘卻，或記得，不是自己可以控制的。

　　大壩尖山，奇特的外觀聳立在雪山山脈中，特別的明顯。住在大壩尖山下的泰雅人相信大壩尖山有一塊巨石，裂開生出了人，而人在他們的語言裡就叫Tseole（澤敖列）。大壩尖山生出了澤敖列，也孕育了大安溪。而澤敖列人就居住在大安溪流域。有一群澤敖列居住在大安溪畔，他們的部落叫雙崎。九二一那天，天崩地裂後，對雙崎的澤敖列來說，裂開的不只是大地。

 

　　九二一地震後，雙崎部落完全全和外界斷了聯絡。有一個住在桃園的原住民歌手巴亞斯和一些朋友趕回了部落中，組了一個叫「部落之音」的地下電台，鼓勵族人不要失去希望。雙崎部落的長老們也馬上推舉出了雙崎重建委員會。地震之後最嚴重的就是沒有水喝。山地部落本來就沒有自來水，需要自行上山用水管接水。大地震連水都震怕了，水源頭通通跑去躲起來。雙崎的協調上問題立刻就突顯了出來，上雙崎與下雙崎各自行動，自接自的水。讓部落中形成了兩個對立的團體。

 

　　有一位吳俊傑老師，也就是原住民作家瓦歷斯‧諾幹，和他的三個孩子住雙崎。他的原本分居的妻子，同樣是作家的排灣族的阿「女烏」，聽到雙崎對外失聯，馬上自台北趕到東勢，在路不通，車不動的情況下，用步行的回到了雙崎部落。九二一不久，颱風隨即撲向台灣。瓦歷斯‧諾幹一家和一些中生代與一些家園全毀的人家建議部落先到比較安全的地方，等颱風過了再回來。部落的長老卻覺得這樣對祖先不敬而反對。這是雙方嫌隙的開始。

 

　　避難中的中生代在軍營中組成了「彌互伊甸園」，希望部落中能相互的彌補缺失。希望用願景來幫助整個部落重建。他們向扶輪社求助了一千萬，來建一棟組合屋，讓災民來住。陳慶和牧師自己的房子和教會也垮了，但是很大方的把自己一塊桃子園捐出來建造組和屋。他的太太受採訪的時候很哀怨的說：「桃子園被砍掉的時候，我一直眼淚很多，我問牧師說，你為什麼住他們？他說沒關係，可憐他們沒地方住，就都砍掉了。」組合屋可以住三年，而三年之後每個家庭需要重建好家園，搬出組合屋。

 

　　一開始在組織下，組合屋一切都條條有理。在大廚房裡的家一起吃飯。小孩放學了，分小學班和中學班，有專人指導功課。大家成立了水源隊，農業隊等等，希望請專家教導大家如何理財，種值有經濟利益的農作物，和紡織有特色的織物，成立直銷以免作物被剝削。能夠讓組合屋裡的家庭能夠重新站起來。可是慢慢的很多理想開始破滅。答應要來教課的專家教授不願意來，或是來了一次就不再來。經費也越來越缺少。

 

　　組合屋蓋好了之後，反而成為了其它領金費租屋的災民忌妒的對象。他們看到媒體和資源好像都向組合屋去，而組合屋的人把給整個部落的資源都拿去了。於是有人偷偷的去把組合屋接上雙崎水源的水管切斷了。組合屋的人只有自己也上山去找水源，組合屋的幹部在山上休息的時候了解，原來他們自己成為了對立的第三個團體。一兩年過後重建委員會不願意重選，也不願意讓不是長老的中生代加入。慢慢的部落中的對立越來越嚴重，尖鋒相對，甚至到了見面都不打招呼的地步。大家都互相指責你有什麼，我沒有什麼。兩邊的領導都不斷的嘗試釋出善意，分享資源，但是問題卻沒有改善。

 

　　山上的民生問題也完全沒得到解決。不斷的向政府反應水和交通的問題都沒有得到實際上的解決。只要一下雨，水源就黃濁不能飲用。當然這個問題不是地震後才有的，二十年以來向政府反應需要自來水石沉大海。大安溪滔滔的河水從雙崎流過，但雙崎的人卻一滴也喝不到。道路一年都沒修復。唯二的修路是九二一後連戰副總統上山，和一年後陳水扁上山，才十幾天全部都搶通了。

 

　　地震兩年後，經濟情況一直無法好轉下，阿女烏和瓦歷斯受到的壓力就越來越大。兩人間的關係也越來越惡化，壓力大到身體都垮了。阿女烏大病一場後，兩人終於離婚，阿女烏孤身回到了台北。遷離時間逼近，組合屋的人慢慢各自搬了出去。原本的願景和希望通通都放棄了。部落之音電台的巴亞斯也很無奈的問大家：Musasuinu？你要去哪裡？而他則回到了台北巴里左岸打鹿灣餐廳當歌手。結束了部落之音。

 

　　紀錄片最後，除了 Musasuinu 這首歌之外，同時也放了這一首改編歌。讓人感觸頗深。

親愛的父老兄弟姊妹們，請你們可憐我。人家喝的水是真正的自來水，我們喝的水是人家的不要，我又把它撈起來，喔伊呀嗨啊。
親愛的父老兄弟姊妹們，請你們可憐我。人家的土地是真正的土地，我們的土地是國家的公園，山林的保護地，喔伊呀嗨啊。
親愛的父老兄弟姊妹們，請你們可憐我。人家的工作是真正的工作，我們的工作是pailang的不要，pailang的剩下，喔伊呀嗨啊。

註：pailang是原住民稱呼漢人的名詞，一說取自台語的歹人（壞人），另一來源可能是西班牙人稱漢人居所為 Parian。在西班牙統治台灣北部時也曾設立 Parian。

　　看完了這一部片。感觸很多。比對去年數次風災後山上的情況，似乎一直都不能從中走出來。山上的問題很多，的確不是重建就能解決的。山上的樹砍掉了這麼久，大家在山上蓋二三層樓的水泥房子。在山上堆平了地來種矮矮的果樹，種高山蔬菜。不幸的是唯一的經濟來源，也是災難不斷發生的原因。要為了水土保持不開路，叫他們不要從事農業，又要他們怎麼活呢？

　　我聽了好多好多人互相指責，推卸責任。是誰放縱山林濫砍。是誰不重修道路讓生活過不去。是誰……

　　我卻聽不到誰真的提出怎樣化解這個惡性循環的惡夢。

我不是自誇，但這是我所做過最上等的劍。妳的旅途上如果遇上神，神也會被斬。

Hittori Hanzo (服部半藏)

　　這部電影是昆汀．塔倫堤諾（Quentin Tarantino）的第四部導演作，絕對是武打片中的極品。當我走出戲院時，我分不出是剛剛看完一部日本卡通，還是一部好萊塢電影。其實……這部電影至少有三十分鐘就是道地的日本卡通。

 

　　這部片沒有要發揚什麼人生道理，沒有悲天憫人的感人劇情，甚至沒有煽情催淚的愛情故事。懷舊熱門文化的玩笑從頭到尾，貫穿在有仇報仇，以牙還牙的主線中。

 

　　如片頭一開始居然出現紹氏的片頭，讓人不禁看一看自己是不是走錯了，誤入二十年前的戲院。之後後出現了一句對Star Trek 的玩笑引句：

Revenge is a dish best served cold. （復仇最好是冷的時候上菜）

An old Klingon Proverb　(古克林貢俗語)

 

　　在琉球發誓永不鑄劍的日本料理師父居然叫服部半藏。除了這些令人會心一笑的細節，就是一場接一場的精彩打鬥。