竹板凳的漁瘟

This is how I save my soul. At least my attempt anyway.
Raspberry Brownie A La Mode and Singigang Stew ^_^~

I don't know how to save my soul.

I know even when I surround myself with a group of new friends, this pain will still be there. Being despised by the person I love so dear, I hope you would never have to experience it.

You didn't contact me the whole weekend. Didn't leave a message on the board. Didn't reply my e-mail. I hope it's just because Sebastian’s there with you the whole time, and not because you don’t want to contact me. It would be a bit unfair that I share with you know all of my thoughts, and you just shut me out.

It’s funny that Bern talked to me on AIM, she tried to cheer me up. Even Luis tried to cheer me up. I really appreciate their kindness. But I also feel a bit sarcastic. Soon, they will probably forget that I ever existed. Bern is your oldest friend. You should be there for each other for ever.

To you, I am, just another person passing by on the road of life. Perhaps I made ripples across the pond of your heart. But ripples always disappear quickly. Bern too will one day almost forget that I existed. She only liked me because she cares for you.

Me on the other hand didn’t think you were just passing by. The worst thing is, I even thought of Goomie and Doob as my own older sisters. I never had any.

"How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back? There are some things time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep, that have taken hold." –a great quote from a very nerdy origin.